Wandering Monk - the mind!!

Questions and thoughts innumerable!!!!!

Why are humans created in such numbers when ultimately they are being killed at some point? Is it to realize something which they are supposed to realize or is it to understand the creation - but then what is the need to understand this creation - Is a Selfish Motive playing behind the drama of creation or is this creation an experiment of the creator to achieve an objective that is impossible for earthly beings to know or understand?

A world that taught about humanity and shuns acts of slavery, atleast through sayings, is a world being a slave itself at the creator's feet...is it? I sometimes feel that after creating everything, god ,as he is called, wants to know what is his creation like.... and started living through different forms of life seeing what his own creation looks like..... what god created is not just a human but a soul within him that reacts in different ways which are beautifully named as 'emotions'...... what a creator can manoeuvre is a destiny of a being, but not the thoughts.

Is there a force really that is making us live or is it just a myth created by man to bury the fact of his defeat in achieving something that is unconquerable..........May be this unconquerable thing is being called 'God'. But then there were men who were known to have seen or understood what 'God' is ,atleast partially. Did they actually see the force....or what they saw was something different? . What they might have seen was a chunk of unknown quantity....or may be an illusion of the powerful mind. Is it?

May be life is not what a single pair of eyes see....may be its an image for countless pair of eyes to see and know how big it is, just like a difference in our pure vision of an object when watched with a single eye and when watched with both of our eyes. Then why are we fighting among ourselves to see what we want to see or claim what each of us saw was correct???

May be we were given only those things which are necessary to know the objective that is set for us.... eyes to see, nose to smell, tongue to taste, hands & legs to act(work),skin to feel ,a structure(skeleton) to carry all these things, a mind that actually co-ordinates and make everything to function harmoniously and guide us using its power and also nternal parts to control the spark(life)existing in the body...............But an objective was not given to us....we are supposed to know what it is......may be the toughest thing is to know what is set for us...i sometimes think that nothing is set for us...we are just to wander and know what is existing, thats it, an exhibition to watch at the cost of human life!!!!!! But then why this meaningless wandering ? Are we actually living a meaningless life? Is it because of the basic human ignorance that we think that we have achieved something or that we haven't achieved something by looking at a materialistic objective in our way?

99% of the humans do not invoke all the power of the mind ,as a science journal qouted...we just use a pinch of it to complete mundane tasks daily. Each one of us handle the mind in differen ways....no doubt about it, other wise everyone would have actually started thinking about an aspect in the same way, no differences is our vision,opinions and thoughts.

What makes me feel terrible is the fact of uncertainity about the thoughts arising in the mind, are these thoughts a means of connecting to the soul of the truth(which is the reason of our existence) Or are these quite random and meaningless??



*** to be coninued *******